If I had to do it over I probably would do things differently. At least I would try to “CMA” little more so that there wouldn’t be so much opportunity for my demise. It’s not that I was doing anything wrong it’s just that I took my position and allow there to be some great areas. Once that could be construed the wrong way but if you knew me you knew there was nothing wrong. I treated it like my own business and maybe that was a mistake in hindsight.

I did learn a lot this unfortunate set of circumstances. I hope it didn’t really make me jaded but I cannot think it did. I don’t think I could ever trust an employer again, at least not to the degree that I did before. I really allowed myself to be committed to that job and in hindsight that was probably a mistake. It seems that in business they are very few places where you can let your guard down. And that’s one of the things that I regret having learned from this experience.

You see I’m a trusting person by nature. And I tended to believe the best of people so I always felt like that in the end no matter what really happened if my intentions were right in my integrity was there I would always be given the benefit of the doubt. Now I know better.

For most people in business as owners, there is always the underlying current that what is good for the business is right. It’s not true those of us that have owned businesses know it’s easy to believe. I’m building a business from home now although I still have my 9 to 5. Someday, I’ll be free. Maybe just free to make my own decisions, but free nonetheless. Free of the fear of being laid off, free of the fear of the way that I felt almost 2 years ago.